Good crying, though.
I hung out at the Opium Den (aka Starbucks) yesterday morning, working on the discussion questions for Secrets She Left Behind. That meant I had to skim through the entire 500+ pages of the manuscript to get back in touch with the story. I was moving through it pretty quickly until I reached the last third. Then I had to start reading every word because I loved it so much. I’m sorry. I know it’s not cool to say how much you love your own work, but when I finish writing a book, I often feel as though it’s terrible. So if I re-read it months later and I’m moved enough by the story to weep, I can’t help but be overjoyed.
I don’t think I’ve ever written a book that I loved throughout the entire writing process. I usually start out excited and positive. But as the going gets tough, I begin to feel as though the entire project was a huge mistake. By then, it’s too late and I have to muddle through. By the time I type The End, I either feel as though a) it’s the worst thing I’ve ever written and I’d better get ready for the hideous reviews and hope to do better next time, b) it’s time to dust off my social work license, or c) it’s sort of okay. I very, very rarely feel as though it’s very, very good. At that point, I’m simply too close to it. That was the case with Secrets. And that is why, when I found myself misty-eyed at the Opium Den yesterday morning, I was a happy woman.
So the discussion questions are finished. Now John and I are beginning to discuss creating a video for the book. Last year, I hired an excellent company, Circle of Seven, to create the trailer for Before the Storm, and I love the job they did with it. John, though, was a video producer before he shifted his focus to commercial photography, and we thought it would be fun to work on this one together. It won’t have a narrator, so we–mostly John–is figuring out how else we can tell the story. A good video is very short–about a minute–and enticing. I’ll let you know how it progresses and if John and I are still speaking to one another by the time we finish!